If I Really Love Her

If I Really Love Her
2006.03.20 22:21
I let her go, I let her go to see somebody else.

You see our nature is strange. Unless we have a steady woman, we feel insecured, so we want a steady girl-friend, we always see her in daily basis. On the other hands, if we always see her every day and night, we feel bored. We think we need a new relationship or at least new encounter in our life. So sometimes I am eager to see someone else.

Once or twice in a month, she doesn't come home directly. Every now and then she came home very late at night. The next day when I asked she said she had a party with her colleagues. So I say it's nice, you ought to attend such a party.

I think if I really love her, I let her go whenever she wants. Since I want her to have more meaningful moment in her life even if it includes some physical relationship with other guys, I don't care, I don't care, I don't want to care.

Tonight is the eve of holiday -vernal equinox, she hasn't come home yet. She here refers to my ex-wife, our friendly relationship started after we divorced, and still keeps on.