Solitude

In the end I am alone.
My girlfriend who went out with me for the last three years has gone since she realised she cannot marry me.
My legal wife never comes to my house but receives benefit
Acquaintants who I like lives far from here - one is in Nogata and the other is in Oita.
Many Japanese girls who are working with me like to be with me. I know, But I am not interested in making friends with Japanese girls.
I realised I need to endure being alone. This is the irony of my life -Happy blue bird is always near me. But I seek for something which is hardly to achieve.
Happy blue bird is never beside you. Therefore we proceed.