45

My current love is 45 years old. One year senior to me. That's why she is wiser than I and her responce to me at conversation shows clear wit. That's one of reason I like her. I am not impressed with replies by younger ladies.

It was his 45 when Mishima cut his belly at the headquarter of Self Defence Force in Ichigaya, Tokyo in the very presence of many young soldiers. His speach to urge them -young soldiers to uprise got only cold smile among soldiers, he tried to show his seriousness by doing things above mentioned. We are not sure whether we got his message. He's gone anyway though.

At 45, Nietzche went mad and closed his sanity forever from our eyes. After 10 years of complete madness he died at 55, so he was dead at 45 actually.

When I wrote some phylosophical work 'Poegie' at age 15, some adults thought my work was written by an adult. So they thought I just relocated other's work in my name. It was completely beyond their imagination for me like a guy of 15 was able to write that difficult work. So some adults tried to think so. Other adults just tried to give me a wide berth. Anyway many adults tried to evade me or ignore me. In short they all were afraid of me. They didn't like to deal with me seriously.

I started my first trek at age 15. 30 years have already passed and still I am on the way to destination -a woman that ought to have been my wife, instead I was given very suitable woman fortunately.

When I complete writing 'The Eve II' at age 19, I was unable to be understood by any people, except for some very intelligent scholars. I had to keep on being suffered from my past writings since I came up with behemoth that was a reflection in my mind.

Raymon was dead at 20 by typhus after he finished writing only two novels, -Enchanted by Evil Spirits, and Dance Party by Count D.. Arthur was dead at 36 by Aids probably, but his literal death was already completed at age 20. All they were gone. But I have to survive, for the sake of me, for the sake of my wife to be, for the sake of people in future.

I will be 45 soon.