45

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2006.02.14 6:10

I don't know how famous Yukio Mishima is in Western world. But of course here in Japan, he is one of the most famous writers. He committed harakiri at age 45 at the headquarters of Self Defence Force in 1970.
At age 45, Nietzsche lost his sanity and went into labyrinth of schizophrenia for the next ten years.
As the moment of my 45th anniversary of birth will approach, I feel fear. Since I've been told too many times that I am already in insanity.( Believe me, many Japanese people have been thinking I am already mad as early as ten or something because of my extremely early development in language skills)
Whatever the reason I have been called to be so, I have to get over the age 45.
In my case, insanity has been always beside me through out my life, I have to overwhelm the insanity, otherwise I will be overwhelmed by it.